My “Mission” to Change

 

     The Prophet Joseph Smith’s teachings consumed my entire life by age sixteen. At that time, I hit rock bottom! I couldn’t stop sobbing for months at a time. I finally realized I could no longer pretend to be heterosexual. My only option was to completely overcome this “sin,” just like the courageous prophets from the Book of Mormon fought to overcome their sins! I was to force myself to become heterosexual by serving as a missionary and showing God that I was willing to sacrifice two years of my life for Him. If that didn’t change me, nothing would. Depression and suicidal thoughts were slowly consuming my everyday life. I had been in utter confusion since I was nine years old! I wanted all of it to finally just disappear! This had to work. It was my only hope...