My Search for Love

 

     I finally started to date at age twenty-seven. My heart was completely innocent and open with an intense desire for a lasting connection. Unfortunately, there were few places I knew where to find meaningful love. Internet dating sites were where I turned. When I finally fell in love with an attractive young man I found online, he gave me the attention I desired. I soon realized it was only sex that he wanted from me. All the emotion, love, and passion I had for this person was dashed to pieces in an instant. Dating became extremely painful. I had no idea what I was getting myself into at this point. The Internet was the only place I knew where I could meet people. The online gay dating world was more ruthless and cruel than I could ever have imagined! I had to be patient and intuitive to find the “one.” It took two years to meet someone who filled the lonely doldrums of my heart with passion and romance. It was the love I once dreamed of as a child. The love I learned from my grandmother as she told her story of her romantic elope with my grandfather. Unfortunately, our relationship only lasted three years; I was devastated! After I recovered from the loss, I realized I couldn’t give up. My previous relationship gave me the strength to keep looking for that diamond in the rough!